well went in for my appointment she put me back on zolft. :( and doubled it. o wow.. lol i knew I was fighting a depression dip but wow. Anyhow my bp was 193/130 she did not let me leave the office with out taking something. To drop it, I also have another new med to start on firday. She also found a lump on /near my thyriod. it is pea size but this one little thing can be causing all my issuses so ultrasound on thursday, And I go back on monday. So that is how that went, had trouble with getting me meds filled apparently the insurance has a differant birthday for me. ugh so hopefully with one phone call it will be taken care of, I did get the kids pictures done today. So if you have me on facebook, you can see all 80 shots, but here are a couple

WOW that is all I can say. Our party of no more specialest appointments in June was short lived. :( Now we have more then ever, I posted the other day about the girls blood work I could not have been more wrong. That day I got a letter in the mail Becca is to see a endocrinologist, apparently her growht hormone is on the low side. Becca has already been seen for this and already been though the MRI's and the bone ageing x-ray. Which just showed she was a premiee and that her bones where a month-2 behing her real age. I thought that was cool at the time they could tell that she was not a term baby 3 year later just by a xray. Anyhow so we are off again in Jan.  Katie's results are still out, the nurse thought they looked normal but had to ask the dr. Wow talk about did not see that coming. I would have guess katie not becca.. ugh o well we shall find out more tommarrow.. Then we have the ENT, the Speech, the audiogist,, not sure why the ENT can not find out why she is failing her hearing screenings she failed at the dr to.. She can hear me talk though so I am not to concerned. Maybe there are certian tones she is not hearing or just being 5. Anyhow then there is the Nero-sergon, the lung dr. and the plastic sergon. I am not going to take Mckenna to the plastic sergon we had a great one and she does not need to go again. This does not add if ty does not walk by 15 months he is going to the phsical thearpist and if he does not grow he gets lab work done and a trip to the Endo. Great news though Ty is walking about 8-10 steps at a time and everywhere he can walk. So that is great there. I am fustrated with this new dr. I feel that the ty is fine he was seen in NC for his head it is fine, mcknna is fine to. And then Becca I think that is a big freaking Joke. I looked up low growth hormone and there is not a whole lot to worry about. besides If there was a issuse the people at texas childrens would have found it. I am not going to go into the rest of it. I am also still mad the ped did not tell me about becca I got a letter in the mail from the endo. I also and ticked I got Bullied into giving my child the shots. And then she was not happy I did not give ty the MMR. It is time for me to go find a new dr. But at the moment I am trying to get stuff under control. I have to go back on the zolft for the axinety, and i have stoped my BP meds cause I can not sleep with them, So I go to the dr on tuseday to find out what they have to say here. I am not going to see a srink so if she does not give me the zolft not srue what I will do. I have had issuses with my angery alot lately. I was doing well but have alot of anger over what has happened to us over the last 3 years. It has been nuts. things are good now I am just ready for the appointments to be over and my kids declared healthy again like they where in June once mckenna was cleared form her plastic sergon and ty was cleared from the nero sergon.

In other news,,

So my crazy freaking neigbors will not calling the cops on us. Everytime the kids go outside then cops show up driving by it is really nuts.. I have been waiting for the cops to get a clue or the neighbor to figure out there is nothing they can do but nither one seems to be getting the hint. I am not sure if there is anything we can do about it but the cops showed up twice today.. And stoped once right infront of the house most of the time they just drive buy. well atleast i know with the neighbors, me and the cops watching the girls will be safe.

Dan is working like crazy which is odd for this time of year but guess with diesls they are busy all year long.

Rocky may be going to a new home, he has bitten mckenna and tryed to bite me so we looked into a boxer rescue. We are trying time outs with him and loud stern NO!'s when he starts to gowl, and we do not allow rough housing at all. It is our last ditch effort to try and keep him we will see how it works I have never seen a aggressive nine week old.  :(

anyhow off to bed.. It has been a long week,,

That is the nice way to say what I want to say.. So today was round 2 of the dr appointments.. Part of me wishs I would have just stuck to the do nothing dr. Cause by the end of the appoinment I was so stressed and reallyt in fear of my sons life that all the kids got the H1N1 shot which is not the live viris. So let me break it down here..

Mckenna- Just small still on the chart has not grown but not a huge dip on the chart.. She got one shot..

Becca- Gained some weight no height took a biger dip on the chart. Weight border line off the chart. that is all with her.. one shot

Katie- No weight gain No hiegth in 2 freaking years. WHAT THE HECK!! droped off the chart guess a 5 year old is suppose to weigh more then 33lbs. Still short but not off the chart on the hiegth just big drop.. Katie failed her 3rd hearing test in 6 weeks she is going to a new ENT which she needs one here anyhow for her tubes, and she is going to look into speech. Katies shot record is screwed up missing her 4 year shots. one shot

Tyler- Rash= virus infection.. I think not but whatever, Asthma, going back to the Nero-sergon. Guess one of the best in the country, there is a 3 month waiting list to get into this guy. Tyler not only did ty lose weight the kid some how lost 1/2 inch. So he has not grown since he was 6 months old. ???? Tylers record has him getting shots when he did not and no shots when he did get them. So she just gave him the typical 12 month shots.  5 shots. I refused the MMR. Alot but I am worried about him.

Confused? yeah so am I, How the heck is 4 kids going to have these issuses all at the same time.. Well lets see we have had lab work done to see if it is medical, next is enviormental.

you want to know what I think,, I think someone at the other dr. office screwed up at the other office.. That is all I can think of right now. I am really upset over it. I am mainly worried about tyler and katie. So who know where we go from here. I hope dhs doesn't show up on my door step Since all 4 of them where officall Dx as Faluire to thrive.. I thought that was only for little babies.. I was wrong..  I am extremlly angry confused and stressed out and praying that I did not do soething worse buy allowing them to get the shot.

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